It Ain't That Simple
bad news never had good timing,Not four days later,
But I’m pretty sure I’ve only achieved one resolution. Let’s review my list of goals again, shall we?
1. Go running twice a week
I still have four days left from this week to meet this expectation! So no comment yet.
2. Don’t skip any classes
I had two lectures today, and lab was cancelled. I attended the lectures, though listening to the Java prof was aggravating beyond my capabilities, I managed to stay for the whole lecture. So far, so good!
3. Sleep by midnight
I came home around 1 yesterday. And currently it is 1:37AM, and here I am. FAIL. I guess I shouldn’t have taken that hour-long nap earlier after coming home from class, but I was so exhausted! I had to.. ok not really but I lack the self control to deny sleep… unless I’m into some drama, then it’s just bad.
4. No more than $40/month on food court
I’m keeping my receipts and trying to budget, so far I’ve spent six bucks on a bowl of soup before going to my lectures because a. I did not pack a lunch, which was dumb! And b. I was starving and would have been more concentrated on my embarrassing growling stomach than paying attention to the lectures.
5. No facebook on school days (HAHAHA)
FAIL. My friend Diana posted the readings for one of our classes in my inbox so I’ve logged onto my account multiple times today to get to my readings. And I admit, I DID check my notifications! Screw you Facebook designers who know I cannot leave a red flag alone. I mean, IT’S RED! SO IT MUST BE READ! Also, since I use Google Chrome, there isn’t a way for me to bookmark the link she sent so I just log on whenever I’m in the mood to read. I however, have gotten better at not wasting so much time on Facebook. 10 minutes tops!
Ok, so I haven’t failed completely. There’s hope for three out of the five! I’m feeling a little bit better. I’m now to starting to shift from thinking that I must succeed at these goals when really they are the guidelines to how I want to change. Change does not occur overnight, and as a human I am imperfect. Alright, so perhaps that spiel was made to shy away from the fact that I did fail and I am so much better than that! Not.
You are the thunder and I am the lightning!
I’ve been listening to that song ‘Naturally’ on repeat for the last half hour, I think it’s starting to annoy me now. I really love this song but now I’m beginning to hear the many sounds of this song in isolated parts and my critical nature is coming out making me think, why do I even like this song? I’m making this post about being obsessive and having that ‘thing’ in your life, whatever it is, taking control. It may seem a little extreme but in all seriousness, there are some habits that we have we do not have control over. It’s a matter of self control and giving in when we are weak. It’s really about pinpointing that weakness so we can find out why we act a certain way when that ‘thing’ is present or why we tend to change our personality whenever that ‘thing’ is involved.
So for my example of listening to songs on repeat, I do that because I really love the songs. Some people can love songs and not dance along with the beat and all but when I ‘love’ songs, I tear them apart right down to the instruments playing, the harmonies sung, its meaning with whatever lyrics are written, down to the breathe breaks of the vocalist.. yup. And the reason I do this is because I feel like I have to really understand a song before I can love it. This sort of relationship with music is something I don’t really understand myself because I myself am not a musician. I can play the piano but I’m not one to write songs or play when I’m bored. I play it when I love a song, then I become obsessed and learn the chords on the piano, and then forget how to play it when I get over my obsession. My obsessions with songs come and go with changing times.
I don’t understand this characteristic of mine, it’s rather odd don’t you think? Enough rambling for today, time to get ready for a staff party! (What was suppose to occur before Christmas but nobody had time so it’s on for today, ten days later.)
2010
I guess I’ll make some resolutions this year, you know, the same generic ones I make every year. But how will this year be different? I’m sure I need some tangible reward for me to to even try working towards these goals. Mere satisfaction from the accomplishment just doesn’t cut it. Perhaps I should shoot for little goals every month! Breaking it down always helps because I’m a pretty forgetful kinda gal and if I make these resolutions now for the entire year, I promise you they will not be resolved by the end of it!
So here goes my resolutions for the month of January 2010.
1. Go running twice a week
2. Don’t skip any classes
3. Sleep by midnight
4. No more than $40/month on food court
5. No facebook on school days (HAHAHA)
None of that general picture stuff,
Today was just one of those days where we did everything but it seemed like nothing!
There’s so much whirling around in my head that I don’t know where to begin. Let’s start with last night. Previous to this morning, I had been awake talking to a friend on the phone. (Do you guys remember what a phone is used for? No, not texting… but yes for talking!) Anyways, we were catching up for awhile.. that kind of while that doesn’t seem like awhile but is. Before I knew it, I said good-bye and fell fast asleep… before setting my alarm!
I woke up this morning from a loud knocking on my door. Still half asleep, I heard my sister talking to somebody downstairs. It finally registered to me that she was talking to my friend, Brianna. My friend was here to pick me up so we could go meet some other friends for breakfast, in a place that was a half-hour drive away! I grew alarmed and jumped out of bed and ran to get ready!
Twenty minutes later we were on our way to Bons, a place known for its all-day breakfast special for 2.95! For those who don’t know, I LOVE BREAKFAST! I couldn’t wait to eat! Thankfully, they hadn’t waited (does that make sense?) for too long and we all indulged in some delicious eggs, sausages or bacon, toast, and potatoes! I had some tea and had a pancake, yes, just one. By the end of it all, I was stuffed.
We went to Norquay Park, the park where my friend Paulina and I used to play at all the time when we were kids, though we didn’t know each other back then. (Perhaps we were childhood friends? Sharing some sand in the ‘box back in the day!) The park was a blast! I didn’t realize I’ve missed it so much! First thing we did was climb up on the bar and soon after regretted that decision because our hands froze up instantly! It was so cold but despite that, we posed for Diana who brought along her new baby, a Canon Rebel XSi DSLR. After the bar, we ran over to that glider that pulls you along a rope, similar to a zipline? Anyways, unfortunately for Brianna, who is a very tall girl, she launched herself off the dock and not even two seconds later found her knees buried in gravel! That was ridiculously funny! So I decided to hang off the glider upside down.. not as fun but still kind of fun? After that we went to the jungle gym. (I think that’s what it’s called, the main part of the playground.) And just went down the slide that wasn’t the least bit slippery at all! One thing I remember from the park was this group of elderly, asian women who came by with what looked like a shuttlecock beanbag. They started to play hackysack with it but instead of their feet, used their hands. It was quite astounding to see the reflexes of old ladies in action! After that we ran to our favourite, the swings! And I got over my fear of jumping off swings. It’s weird how I find myself with fears that I once faced with no concern whatsoever in the past. Can someone tell me how I’ve managed to become such a wimp?
With our shoes muddy and hands still freezing cold, we made our way to Diana’s house to watch UP. Unfortunately, the movie played while all of us were slumped over in our spots on the floor or couch. Apparently, an hour of barely running around and light swinging is enough to knock nineteen-year-olds out. Except for Diana. After that, Diana had work and Paulina had to go see a movie with her mom! (Cute!) Brianna needed to go downtown to run an errand so I decided to accompany her for I had nothing planned for the rest of the day. We were downtown for a bit then on our way back, stopped at DQ! I was craving ice-cream or poutine and also was wanting to see if anyone I knew I was working (but nobody was there..oh well!) I settled for some the fries-gravy-cheese combo and while we were waiting for the food, I assisted one of the employees place stickers on the lids (the ones that cover your cake!) I don’t know what provoked me to ask her, ‘Need any help with that?’ But it was kind of fun, the unconventional action of working for DQ for those two minutes! ‘Be sure not to cover that recycle sign,’ she said. The first sticker I pulled off ripped, let’s hope she didn’t notice. (But the rest were done beautifully, I swear!)
There was still a couple hours to kill before we needed to be somewhere so we went to visit Diana at her workplace. What was meant to be a brief visit ended up lasting 45minutes! We chatted and then moved over to the Rockband station, joining this 8-yr-old girl who was already there playing alone. She was the drummer, until her sister told her it was time to go, and we were her guitarist and bassist. That ended when a couple of pre-teen boys showed up with their McDonalds bags looking like they wanted to play really badly..’I call the drums, man.’
After that was people watching. Brianna and I went up to the 4th floor (you read correctly, fourth! Sorry, meant for those who think metrotown only having three floors.) and stared down at the overwhelming crowds of people walking in every which way on the floors below. It was fun watching the busy shoppers hustling around without actually being among them. Then all of a sudden, we spotted outside Lululemon, two women engaging in some yoga exercises. It was strange watching them stretch on mats, seemingly carefree, without shoes, in the midst of hurrying bodies around them.
After that, Brianna went to meet her friend for dinner and I took the skytrain home and painted on monsters on a canvas with my sisters. Now that’s two childhood activities I was re-introduced to in one day! And I must say, today was the bomb.
AppleCashews
First of all, the fruit and nut dedication probably has to do with the fact that we were merely feeling hungry at the time of initiation. That or we’re open food lovers? Who knows?
I don’t know why I had to talk about our random name first… that didn’t accomplish anything. Anyways, the simple explanation is that we were in two separate teams (made during class to work on projects and such) but were altogether the same circle of friends. Apple is short for appleJUICE and Cashews… is just cashews!
Ok so how are they so great? I mean all we’ve done together was spend a million nights up at school wreaking chaos through the hallways, pouring out hours-at-a-time on design projects, laugh at each other’s stupidity, and record videos of nonsense. I mean it’s nothing out of the ordinary friendships. It just seems kind of special because we’ve become really close really fast and have had such a blast these past two years. Now that I’ve thought about how long it’s been, I realize that two years have never passed so quickly before.. I’m getting old 
Soon I’ll be two decades old!
Aside, I find these people especially unique because of where they came from. We all went to different high schools and lived in different cities. And we all decided to come together, or were brought together by fate, at this school. I guess that since we’re studying the same thing, it was easier to be friends with these people who were similar. That being said, the fact is I’m pretty happy I’ve had the chance to meet these people.
A final thought about this is that we may have become acquainted too fast too soon. With good times, comes not-so-good times. As much as I’d like to think that we’re close and all, truth is, we know each other’s strengths and weaknesses when it comes to school projects. Some of us have found recently that we really don’t know each other despite the exterior image of being so close-knit. Most of our conversations only touch the surface of our own personal lives and the secrets shared are no more than that of someone else’s academic failure or little embarrassing moments. We make an awesome team in class but as far as friendship goes in reality, only time can tell.
I’ll conclude with a bit more positivity, time is unlimited! Until someone dies. But that’s not going to happen! Well, I don’t know. (Ok, failed attempt at positivity, tells you what kind of person I am!) A. Pessimistic B. Sadistic C. Awkward D. Unfunny
My unfunniness shall be a whole ‘notha blog in itself.
once again,
I’ve found myself buried in a new hobby. Previous to university life, I was quite the avid blogger. Though I’m sure my blogs then were full of shallow emotions that I found heart-wrenching at the time. Fast forward two to three years and here I am, a changed man.. well in my case, woman. (It just kind of sounds better as ‘changed man’ because it reminds me of movies where there is always a ‘changed man.’ I’m going to stop saying ‘changed man’ now.) Anyways, I hope for these future blogs to be filled with new, and more developed emotions, on this whirlwind of a life. Let the words fill you with hope, jostle you to bits, brings you back to that place, or whatever. Just take it or leave it but here is my place to let you know whatsup! 
If anyone’s wondering, my banner was made to show off the most amazing people (Man, do I shower with them with compliments too often! Ok fine, it’s not likely that such words would leave my mouth if they were in my physical presence…but let’s not get into that now.) that I’ve met at university. I bet you got confused reading that because I followed a different thought midway through that sentence so I’m sorry. (Not really) It’s simply a way for me to show you..um, how my mind works? It’s so much fun that I did it again! Ahem! Referring back to the people shown in the banner, they are ‘The Regulars.’ We call ourselves ‘AppleCashews’ which I will be sure to explain in another post, some other time. But for now, I’m thinking that 4:50AM is not a time where I should be awake, let alone start up a new blog and then ramble about blogging.
