YOU

Sorry for not being present. I have no excuse for my behaviour and will try because the end is near and I have so much more I want to offer other than poor excuses.

I want to tell you so badly but apparently it would be difficult to undo and leave be if I did, according to them. I guess I’m going to pretend it never happened then. But it’s really funny when I play these situations over again and again in my head. How awkward would that be? Very. But I guess I’m one that lives for these awkward moments because it gives us so much more to talk about.. or not talk about. I think I liked the idea of it all but it wasn’t meant for such a thing.

It’s not as if I meant for that to happen. I’m trying to be a good friend to you but it’s not easy. We all have our flaws but something tells me I’m not crazy when I feel as if I never want to disclose any details of my life to you.

You are the biggest struggle in my life right now. I wish I had never opened my mouth but apparently I’ve said too much or you’ve done too much and now I’m living under chains. I should probably stop talking to you altogether, but I can’t help it. I love our conversations, when we have time but other than that, I don’t feel as if I mean anything at all. I’m probably overthinking it though.. maybe? Too deep.. too late to return.

YOU FRUSTRATE ME WITH THAT ATTITUDE. It’s no wonder we don’t talk and school is not to blame. If I cared enough, I would make the effort.

You’re so funny, I wish I wasn’t such an ill-tempered person but thanks for being there. You make my life so much easier and I apologize for making yours harder than it needs to be.